he hasn't really thought about the whole thing since the night it happened — save for finally learning matt's name at an especially awkward breakfast the other day. clearly, nami's been thinking about it.
a lot. shit. )
no i'm not and i don't want to
i didn't show up there thinking i would i just i think there was something about the drinks i swear i've never felt like that in my entire life like i was gonna die if i didn't if i didn't find someone to help right then and there
not saying that makes it okay or even that i didn't want it, because i definitely did but
( uuugggh he. is so bad at this shit. hiding behind his phone screen doesn't even do zoro much good. )
( any number of grab bag issues nami has festering inside her, which she would literally rather die than innumerate. insecurity at being the crew's resident traitor, who always has one foot out the door. her mother's loathsome child, born and bred thief, undeserving of affection. lingering guilt at making zoro go to the fucked up sex club in the first place.
the cop-out: )
we need to use condoms if you're going to be with other people. so. actually we should do it anyway, so you don't feel like you have to tell me. it's fine.
nami i'm not having sex with other people i don't want to have sex with other people
( well.
well. except. )
would you be this pissed if it was the cook's dick i sucked?
i haven't for the record
but we had sex back in the village
( which zoro isn't really sure if he's told her, honestly. but — this whole conversation is confusing as fuck, especially when his relationship with nami is the one thing he's so sure of, especially in the wake of whatever the hell sanji's problem is with him at any given moment. he's itching for a drink, honestly. )
( she wouldn't be pissed. this time, it's actually the truth. )
you already know i wouldn't be. i know you had sex.
( sanji told her actually, shock of shocks. he also mentioned that he told zoro he loved him, which only serves as a reminder that zoro said the same to her. so it's no wonder, or wouldn't be a surprise if he sought the company of other people because nami, you are simply, clearly, obviously not enough.
unfair to think it. she doesn't really believe it either, she just wants to make herself feel worse — a subject she has a lot of experience in. )
it just feels like we share sanji. so it feels like you want me involved. or like i am involved, whether you like it or not. i don't ( want to be left behind ) want you to feel bad if something like this happens again. you shouldn't feel bad. it's fine. i was just curious about what your type is, i guess. cute and nice.
( she thinks about herself — cute, not nice. she thinks about sanji — also cute, and nice to nami, but not nice to zoro. so, the truth comes out. )
( huh. if he didn't say it, then sanji must have told her, which is ...
something. he's not sure if it's good or bad — but it's surprising, even still, considering zoro expects sanji to pretend it never happened. had nami felt it from across the village? the desperate clench of sanji's cunt around his fingers, the thud of sanji's back against the mattress as zoro flipped him over, the frantic, desperate thrusts into him until sanji cried out, cursed him over and over again before telling zoro he loved him?
— fuck. he misses his connection with nami, a pang in the hollow part of his chest where he used to sense her. zoro would know how nami felt — and maybe nami could understand if she could feel his devotion to her, could get a little taste of what matt's magic had felt like. they'd laugh at the idea of a conversation like this, he thinks. )
i don't have a type i just like who i like which barely ever happens like you like the cook, even if he hates my guts most of the time back at home i don't even ... go looking for that kind of thing. i'd rather drink.
( local man is doing the shittiest job ever at explaining being demi, especially because he has no idea what the fuck being demi is. )
i love you nami and i love him too and i don't want anyone else
( somehow, it's easier the second time — probably because he's not saying it out loud. )
( logic tells her to listen to what zoro is saying and take it at face value, since he's not especially cunning or prone to trickery — and yet, he says i don't have a type and nami hears i have a type, it just isn't you. it's matt, probably. she has to find him. )
what if you stop? or
( it wouldn't be shocking, really. nami is not lovable, is not capable of forming her mouth around the words she couldn't even tell her mother. so — how long is zoro going to feel anything but resentment towards her, when he keeps saying nice things, and she keeps wanting to kill whoever touches him? )
( because zoro's pretty fucking sure he's in this shit for the long haul — especially considering how devastating it was to be without her for even the first few days when he woke up in this place. especially considering the way he can feel himself trying to inwardly tug on the invisible connection between them that isn't there anymore, like a missing limb.
honestly, he wants to throw this shitty little phone out the window and find nami and — do something. but he's pretty sure she doesn't want to see him right now. )
( you can't, she thinks. who can ever convince nami of anything?
distantly, and maybe just because he's a hot topic right now, she thinks of luffy. luffy's dumb straw hat on her head, luffy saying of course i will to a pleading nami's cry — help me. she would've said he couldn't either, simply because no one else ever has. but she's learned a little, thanks to luffy. impossibilities don't really seems as impossible anymore, when that idiot boy she met in the marine's compound ended up being the bravest, funniest, best pirate captain she ever met.
so, maybe it isn't you can't, because it wasn't for luffy, and if there's one thing you should never do, it's doubt a straw hat. )
if you come by my room every day early for the next month. and you walk me to breakfast. then i'll believe you.
you're on i, roronoa zoro, vow to come to your room early every day for the next month and walk you to breakfast hopefully longer than the next month if you'll let me
( he's being a little silly now, maybe. but it's because it sort of feels like a weight's been lifted — at least a little bit. this is something tangible, at least, something zoro knows that he can do, something he wants to do for nami.) what happens if i come over so early i have to stay the night?
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Date: 2024-07-31 01:55 am (UTC)he hasn't really thought about the whole thing since the night it happened — save for finally learning matt's name at an especially awkward breakfast the other day. clearly, nami's been thinking about it.
a lot. shit. )
no
i'm not
and i don't want to
i didn't show up there thinking i would i just
i think there was something about the drinks
i swear i've never felt like that in my entire life like i was gonna die if i didn't
if i didn't find someone to help right then and there
not saying that makes it okay or even that i didn't want it, because i definitely did but
( uuugggh he. is so bad at this shit. hiding behind his phone screen doesn't even do zoro much good. )
sorry
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Date: 2024-07-31 02:24 am (UTC)( she says. seething. )
obviously you can do whatever you want.
it's just
( any number of grab bag issues nami has festering inside her, which she would literally rather die than innumerate. insecurity at being the crew's resident traitor, who always has one foot out the door. her mother's loathsome child, born and bred thief, undeserving of affection. lingering guilt at making zoro go to the fucked up sex club in the first place.
the cop-out: )
we need to use condoms if you're going to be with other people. so.
actually we should do it anyway, so you don't feel like you have to tell me. it's fine.
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Date: 2024-07-31 02:40 am (UTC)i'm not having sex with other people
i don't want to have sex with other people
( well.
well. except. )
would you be this pissed if it was the cook's dick i sucked?
i haven't
for the record
but we had sex back in the village
( which zoro isn't really sure if he's told her, honestly. but — this whole conversation is confusing as fuck, especially when his relationship with nami is the one thing he's so sure of, especially in the wake of whatever the hell sanji's problem is with him at any given moment. he's itching for a drink, honestly. )
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Date: 2024-07-31 03:15 am (UTC)( she wouldn't be pissed. this time, it's actually the truth. )
you already know i wouldn't be. i know you had sex.
( sanji told her actually, shock of shocks. he also mentioned that he told zoro he loved him, which only serves as a reminder that zoro said the same to her. so it's no wonder, or wouldn't be a surprise if he sought the company of other people because nami, you are simply, clearly, obviously not enough.
unfair to think it. she doesn't really believe it either, she just wants to make herself feel worse — a subject she has a lot of experience in. )
it just feels like we share sanji. so it feels like you want me involved. or like i am involved, whether you like it or not.
i don't ( want to be left behind ) want you to feel bad if something like this happens again. you shouldn't feel bad. it's fine.
i was just curious about what your type is, i guess. cute and nice.
( she thinks about herself — cute, not nice. she thinks about sanji — also cute, and nice to nami, but not nice to zoro. so, the truth comes out. )
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Date: 2024-07-31 03:59 am (UTC)something. he's not sure if it's good or bad — but it's surprising, even still, considering zoro expects sanji to pretend it never happened. had nami felt it from across the village? the desperate clench of sanji's cunt around his fingers, the thud of sanji's back against the mattress as zoro flipped him over, the frantic, desperate thrusts into him until sanji cried out, cursed him over and over again before telling zoro he loved him?
— fuck. he misses his connection with nami, a pang in the hollow part of his chest where he used to sense her. zoro would know how nami felt — and maybe nami could understand if she could feel his devotion to her, could get a little taste of what matt's magic had felt like. they'd laugh at the idea of a conversation like this, he thinks. )
i don't have a type i just
like who i like which barely ever happens
like you
like the cook, even if he hates my guts most of the time
back at home i don't even ... go looking for that kind of thing. i'd rather drink.
( local man is doing the shittiest job ever at explaining being demi, especially because he has no idea what the fuck being demi is. )
i love you nami
and i love him too
and i don't want anyone else
( somehow, it's easier the second time — probably because he's not saying it out loud. )
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Date: 2024-07-31 01:17 pm (UTC)what if you stop? or
( it wouldn't be shocking, really. nami is not lovable, is not capable of forming her mouth around the words she couldn't even tell her mother. so — how long is zoro going to feel anything but resentment towards her, when he keeps saying nice things, and she keeps wanting to kill whoever touches him? )
what if you change your mind?
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Date: 2024-07-31 02:21 pm (UTC)( because zoro's pretty fucking sure he's in this shit for the long haul — especially considering how devastating it was to be without her for even the first few days when he woke up in this place. especially considering the way he can feel himself trying to inwardly tug on the invisible connection between them that isn't there anymore, like a missing limb.
honestly, he wants to throw this shitty little phone out the window and find nami and — do something. but he's pretty sure she doesn't want to see him right now. )
how can i make you believe me?
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Date: 2024-08-01 12:43 am (UTC)distantly, and maybe just because he's a hot topic right now, she thinks of luffy. luffy's dumb straw hat on her head, luffy saying of course i will to a pleading nami's cry — help me. she would've said he couldn't either, simply because no one else ever has. but she's learned a little, thanks to luffy. impossibilities don't really seems as impossible anymore, when that idiot boy she met in the marine's compound ended up being the bravest, funniest, best pirate captain she ever met.
so, maybe it isn't you can't, because it wasn't for luffy, and if there's one thing you should never do, it's doubt a straw hat. )
if you come by my room every day early for the next month. and you walk me to breakfast.
then i'll believe you.
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Date: 2024-08-01 02:19 pm (UTC)i, roronoa zoro, vow to come to your room early every day for the next month and walk you to breakfast
hopefully longer than the next month if you'll let me
( he's being a little silly now, maybe. but it's because it sort of feels like a weight's been lifted — at least a little bit. this is something tangible, at least, something zoro knows that he can do, something he wants to do for nami.)
what happens if i come over so early i have to stay the night?
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Date: 2024-08-01 02:38 pm (UTC)well.
it's a big bed.
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Date: 2024-08-01 02:45 pm (UTC)💚
( ok cheese!! )