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Date: 2023-12-26 07:05 pm (UTC)
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what do you mean ‘no’! not ‘no’! yes!!!
you could’ve mentioned something sooner, asshole

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Date: 2023-12-26 08:12 pm (UTC)
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i’m not mad about it.

( it would be pretty hypocritical of her, anyway. any irritation she feels is not at them being … well, whatever they are, but at being left out of the loop. even that feels pretty small, in light of zoro, zoro, rambling. )

it’s pretty obvious there’s something there now. unless you missed me psychically giving him directions on how to suck your dick.
what do we do? i mean




well, what if it happens again? do we need like
rules
?

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Date: 2023-12-26 09:09 pm (UTC)
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zoro.

( please )

it wasn’t my dick he was sucking. in case you forgot that too.
obviously sanji has some


well, i don’t know what it is, but he’s weird about men, despite clearly wanting to suck dick. so, that’s something we’re going to help him with. because we’re friends, even if you both annoy the hell out of me.

can you also stop pretending like i can’t read your scribbles
yes, i want it to happen again. which feels like a pretty vulnerable thing to say considering the conversation, so if you feel like admitting anything right now, feel free.
i had fun, i’m a thief, i’m greedy, blah blah. i’m really not willing to hurt either of you because i’m greedy though, so if it’s a problem, you can tell me and i’ll stop
like, interrupting you two. i wasn’t exactly invited, before.

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Date: 2023-12-27 01:07 am (UTC)
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( he is so, so pretty.

a part of her would love to feel unaffected by zoro's words, because she's always relied on not feeling anything towards anyone at all. and yet, i don't think there's an us without you makes the thing that was lonely and forgotten inside of nami sing, a little. part of a whole, it feels like. like three points on a triangle. sometimes, and rarely, zoro says exactly the right thing.
)

so. you liked me being there.
and if it was just us? or just me and sanji?
just you and him? would you want that? how does that work?

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Date: 2023-12-27 02:02 am (UTC)
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i mean.
there hasn't really been just us. not in the same way.


( why is that, she wonders. both of them too sensitive over sanji's feelings? or both of them too frigid with each other, to encourage anything? it can't be that. nami doesn't feel icy when she's around zoro — far from it.

but she does remember him not kissing her when he left sanji in her care. she remembers no kisses lately, really.
)

are you going to talk to him about it? have you?

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Date: 2023-12-27 03:24 am (UTC)
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ahh i see.

( very like sanji to cling to a convenient excuse. still, nami is pretty sure she knows what he was feeling then — like 90% sure. it's a little confusing, since their attraction to zoro is either mirrored or bleeding into each other. impossible to know the difference. almost impossible. )

i'll try to talk to him.

( step one of luring a bunny: false sense of security.

it strikes her that demanding answers from zoro is probably not a very fair thing to ask of him, when he's probably felt sanji's denial the sharpest out of all of them. it's hard, sometimes, to know when zoro is feeling something. nami wishes she could read his mind half as easily as sanji's.
)

just so you know
if that really is how sanji feels, he's going to have to deal with sharing me.
i'm not leaving you behind. i want you, too. that's just how it is.

cw: nsfw

Date: 2023-12-27 06:46 pm (UTC)
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( it’s strange, how on one hand she can be blunt and honest with herself, and on the other feel a giddy type of shyness in the face of zoro’s feelings. she’s not sure why. the absence of panic inside her is almost more notable than the panic otherwise would be — has she grown a lot, in the past few months? maybe it’s just zoro, the fact that he doesn’t speak unless it’s important, saying i’m yours.

there is some sense of victory, presumably. she’s never had to guess about sanji’s feelings towards her. zoro is another story altogether.
)

any way?

( she hasn’t been the one bringing more puritanical practices to their budding relationship — though, she supposes she hasn’t kissed him either. alright. she’s just going to kiss them both on the mouth when she comes home today, and pretend like it’s normal. )

it was a little weird. hard to understand at first. i kind of felt … i don’t know, an impression before i realized it was sanji. it was kind of
maybe overwhelming, in a way? i could feel what he wanted, what i wanted. i felt like i knew everything about him, and that i was giving him permission for whatever he wanted.
and it was physical, too. i could feel his knees getting sore, and his ears under his fingers and
( why is this easier to talk about with sanji. why does she feel so embarrassed all of a sudden. ) your dick in my mouth. like, the heaviness of it, the shape. kind of the taste too, but more like an afterthought. but really, i was just talking to him, asking how he felt and if he liked it. telling him what to do, what he could do if he wanted. and then
when i started touching myself, he could feel it. it was weird, like i was touching both of us with one hand. i don’t know. that’s probably more detail than you wanted.

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Date: 2024-01-02 04:23 am (UTC)
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( a little pause. at least — well, at least it's over the notebooks, and not face to face. )

yeah. kinda hard not to.











i felt everything. the effects of the mistletoe. you.
sanji getting hard.
i couldn't hear you, though. that was the worst part.

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Date: 2024-01-04 03:42 am (UTC)
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( and, like that, nami grows a backbone and is no longer grateful for the dividers that exist between them — she wishes she could see his face while he says that, wants to know if zoro blushes or gets flustered, or if he's as intense and honest as he is whenever he tells luffy he's his second in command. )

one day?