[ the words drop like stones between them, and at once his temper ignites, fueled by something so much stronger than just rage. his fear sticks in his throat, choking him, the grief of what could have transpired sitting like a weight upon his shoulders. for one horrible moment, his animal instinct envisions slamming his foot right into zoro's throat, knowing the exact trajectory to take to break his fucking neck.
he's on his feet, whirling around to kick the wall. the room nearly shakes, the thud deafening. then he slides back onto the bed, crowding into zoro's space, his one eye wide and red-rimmed. ]
Fuck you, you shitty idiot. Don't fucking say that to me ever again.
[ it sounds so wrong from zoro's lips, so unnatural. it sounds like something sanji would say, always ready for self-sacrifice, to throw himself upon a sword or a pyre or a reason to save someone else. zoro is the one that's supposed to fight. sanji is the one that gives himself up, belly up, with a smile.
from this close, he can see everything. the freckles spread across zoro's cheeks. the dusting of his dark lashes. the little flush of red at zoro's lips from the meat. sanji's throat bobs in a hard swallow, his gaze pointedly avoiding the bowl, but he can't avoid zoro's strong, calloused, elegant fingers, stained with meaty juices from the raw cuts of deer. his hunger wrenches him forward like a hook, his breath straining in his chest. his weak, aching hand claps around zoro's wrist, dragging it to his mouth, where he holds it there for an eternity, panting.
his tongue flicks out. there's nothing there but the residue of the meat, but he can taste it, raw flesh and trace remnants of blood. his lips touch zoro's fingertips, and then he's sliding his first two fingers into the warm heat of his mouth, tonguing him up to his knuckles. he sucks at every trace of flavor, licking him clean, and it's not nearly enough, but it's more than what he's had in days, in weeks. ]
( there's a moment of relative silence that lingers the air after zoro practically spits his last words, exasperated, and he briefly thinks that maybe it'll finally sink in — that zoro would give his life if it meant keeping nami and this shitty fucking cook alive. but before that thought can settle, sanji is on his feet and it makes zoro's heart race — angry that he's running away from him again like he always fucking does, but aching at the thought of it.
the kick to the wall may as well be a kick to the throat instead with the way the sound reverberates through the room, ears flattening on top of his head. there's a defensive flash of his teeth as sanji encroaches his personal space entirely, fingers curling into fists briefly at his sides, but he doesn't retaliate. hell, he doesn't even look away, gaze sharp as each word ends up practically growled in his face. do something about it, asshole, he wants to yell. do something about it for once instead of being a fucking coward.
the words die on his tongue as zoro suddenly realizes how intently the cook is staring at him, can feel each smoke-tinged exhale of air against his face as he pants, mouths a breath apart. is tonight the night that they finally stop pretending to tolerate each other for nami's sake? is tonight the night that they finally stop holding back and actually fight, claws and sharp teeth and torn flesh, uncaring if his wounds split back open again, uncaring if he bleeds out? the way sanji snatches hold of his wrist makes him think so, and zoro makes one attempt to struggle against his fingers, surprised by the brute strength he finds.
instead of the warm blood spewing from a split lip after an imagined punch to the face, there's suddenly only the wet heat of sanji's mouth, his tongue laving over zoro's fingertips like they're the best thing he's ever fucking tasted. it knocks the wind out of him, honestly, gaze fixed on the way his lips stretch around his fingers, and memories of those same lips wrapping around his cock come flooding back in, the greedy drag of his tongue up his length —
fuck. this is — this isn't good. he presses his fingers down on sanji's tongue, meanly shoves them a little deeper inside. ) Don't fuck with me, cook, ( zoro practically whispers, a mild warning, a mild plea, voice feeling ragged with a need that he knows deep down doesn't match the blonde that's practically in his lap — he's been denied way too many fucking times to make that stupid mistake again. )
[ it's a raw, brutal admission, his weakness surging through his flimsy pretenses. for all the times he was — this time there's nothing but painful honesty, both his desire and his need blown out on full display. his gaze flickers upwards, his one eye haunted in the split second he looks at zoro's face, his lips stretched around his fingers, then away.
he pulls back slowly, his tongue dragging along every inch of skin until zoro's wet fingertips rest at the edge of his lips, licked perfectly clean. he's a breath away from begging, his senses frantic, and when he pulls away, he draws his cigarette back to his lips to draw in a quivering breath. this is worse than his vicious desire to kiss zoro, because this hurts in a way that he's been trying to forget for a long time. ]
You need to eat. [ this time his voice is hoarse, the base of his velveteen ears twitching amidst his blond hair. ] You need to get better. I can't — do any of this on my own.
[ zoro doesn't even know. he doesn't know that sanji's connection to nami is gone. that he's so hungry that he hurts. that he feels a single step away from slipping now that he's alone. that he just — wants, and doesn't know what to do with that. ]
Just eat. Please. [ sanji lowers his head, leaning his forward on his knees, his breath unsteady. the room feels like it's going to tip over on its side. ] Zoro... please. The blood —
( he's trembling. he's trembling, and he hates it, reeling at the sight of sanji's tongue licking his fingers clean, jaw clenching as his teeth grit together. it's making him feel fucking crazy — hunger for the meat on the table beside him getting all fucking mixed up with zoro's desire to pull the cook fully onto his lap, mouths crashing together, sharp teeth and the metallic tang of blood on his tongue.
it takes effort for zoro to control his breathing, slow inhales through his nose that really only serve to further fill his senses with deer meat and rabbit. it's a relief, actually, when the herbaceous smoke takes over instead, sanji's weight off of him as he finally pulls away. )
You — ( he starts, but the start of an argument dies on his tongue as the cook continues to practically plead with him to eat. zoro wants to eat, but the hunger lingering in his belly is suddenly sharing space with a deep sense of a worry, too.
i need you. i need you. sanji's voice echoes distantly in his head, and zoro slowly realizes that it's not just some wishful thinking, some product of his imagination. he'd really said that, back when zoro was near-death back in that shitty fucking circus tent. the realization makes his words now hit even harder. it might not be in the same way, but — he needs zoro as much as zoro needs him. ) Okay, I'll — I'll eat.
( his hand is still shaking as he grabs two, three chunks of meat with his fingers, shoving it hastily in his mouth and chewing eagerly before swallowing it down. another taste weakens his resolve even further and zoro ingests another fistful of it before grabbing hastily for the pitcher of blood, forgoing pouring it into a cup in favor of drinking from it directly, near-chugging it because it tastes so fucking good, sates something innate that he hasn't been able to deny since the change. the pitcher is half-empty when he puts it back down on the side table, lips wet and red. )
I can't do this without you either, you know. Once I'm better, you — I'll find a way to fix your wrists. You'd be an even shittier cook without your hands.
( there's no heat behind his words, just an uncertainty that he can't swallow down, promises he's afraid to make. )
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Date: 2024-01-22 05:17 am (UTC)he's on his feet, whirling around to kick the wall. the room nearly shakes, the thud deafening. then he slides back onto the bed, crowding into zoro's space, his one eye wide and red-rimmed. ]
Fuck you, you shitty idiot. Don't fucking say that to me ever again.
[ it sounds so wrong from zoro's lips, so unnatural. it sounds like something sanji would say, always ready for self-sacrifice, to throw himself upon a sword or a pyre or a reason to save someone else. zoro is the one that's supposed to fight. sanji is the one that gives himself up, belly up, with a smile.
from this close, he can see everything. the freckles spread across zoro's cheeks. the dusting of his dark lashes. the little flush of red at zoro's lips from the meat. sanji's throat bobs in a hard swallow, his gaze pointedly avoiding the bowl, but he can't avoid zoro's strong, calloused, elegant fingers, stained with meaty juices from the raw cuts of deer. his hunger wrenches him forward like a hook, his breath straining in his chest. his weak, aching hand claps around zoro's wrist, dragging it to his mouth, where he holds it there for an eternity, panting.
his tongue flicks out. there's nothing there but the residue of the meat, but he can taste it, raw flesh and trace remnants of blood. his lips touch zoro's fingertips, and then he's sliding his first two fingers into the warm heat of his mouth, tonguing him up to his knuckles. he sucks at every trace of flavor, licking him clean, and it's not nearly enough, but it's more than what he's had in days, in weeks. ]
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Date: 2024-01-23 02:48 am (UTC)the kick to the wall may as well be a kick to the throat instead with the way the sound reverberates through the room, ears flattening on top of his head. there's a defensive flash of his teeth as sanji encroaches his personal space entirely, fingers curling into fists briefly at his sides, but he doesn't retaliate. hell, he doesn't even look away, gaze sharp as each word ends up practically growled in his face. do something about it, asshole, he wants to yell. do something about it for once instead of being a fucking coward.
the words die on his tongue as zoro suddenly realizes how intently the cook is staring at him, can feel each smoke-tinged exhale of air against his face as he pants, mouths a breath apart. is tonight the night that they finally stop pretending to tolerate each other for nami's sake? is tonight the night that they finally stop holding back and actually fight, claws and sharp teeth and torn flesh, uncaring if his wounds split back open again, uncaring if he bleeds out? the way sanji snatches hold of his wrist makes him think so, and zoro makes one attempt to struggle against his fingers, surprised by the brute strength he finds.
instead of the warm blood spewing from a split lip after an imagined punch to the face, there's suddenly only the wet heat of sanji's mouth, his tongue laving over zoro's fingertips like they're the best thing he's ever fucking tasted. it knocks the wind out of him, honestly, gaze fixed on the way his lips stretch around his fingers, and memories of those same lips wrapping around his cock come flooding back in, the greedy drag of his tongue up his length —
fuck. this is — this isn't good. he presses his fingers down on sanji's tongue, meanly shoves them a little deeper inside. ) Don't fuck with me, cook, ( zoro practically whispers, a mild warning, a mild plea, voice feeling ragged with a need that he knows deep down doesn't match the blonde that's practically in his lap — he's been denied way too many fucking times to make that stupid mistake again. )
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Date: 2024-01-27 12:39 am (UTC)[ it's a raw, brutal admission, his weakness surging through his flimsy pretenses. for all the times he was — this time there's nothing but painful honesty, both his desire and his need blown out on full display. his gaze flickers upwards, his one eye haunted in the split second he looks at zoro's face, his lips stretched around his fingers, then away.
he pulls back slowly, his tongue dragging along every inch of skin until zoro's wet fingertips rest at the edge of his lips, licked perfectly clean. he's a breath away from begging, his senses frantic, and when he pulls away, he draws his cigarette back to his lips to draw in a quivering breath. this is worse than his vicious desire to kiss zoro, because this hurts in a way that he's been trying to forget for a long time. ]
You need to eat. [ this time his voice is hoarse, the base of his velveteen ears twitching amidst his blond hair. ] You need to get better. I can't — do any of this on my own.
[ zoro doesn't even know. he doesn't know that sanji's connection to nami is gone. that he's so hungry that he hurts. that he feels a single step away from slipping now that he's alone. that he just — wants, and doesn't know what to do with that. ]
Just eat. Please. [ sanji lowers his head, leaning his forward on his knees, his breath unsteady. the room feels like it's going to tip over on its side. ] Zoro... please. The blood —
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Date: 2024-01-29 02:54 am (UTC)it takes effort for zoro to control his breathing, slow inhales through his nose that really only serve to further fill his senses with deer meat and rabbit. it's a relief, actually, when the herbaceous smoke takes over instead, sanji's weight off of him as he finally pulls away. )
You — ( he starts, but the start of an argument dies on his tongue as the cook continues to practically plead with him to eat. zoro wants to eat, but the hunger lingering in his belly is suddenly sharing space with a deep sense of a worry, too.
i need you. i need you. sanji's voice echoes distantly in his head, and zoro slowly realizes that it's not just some wishful thinking, some product of his imagination. he'd really said that, back when zoro was near-death back in that shitty fucking circus tent. the realization makes his words now hit even harder. it might not be in the same way, but — he needs zoro as much as zoro needs him. ) Okay, I'll — I'll eat.
( his hand is still shaking as he grabs two, three chunks of meat with his fingers, shoving it hastily in his mouth and chewing eagerly before swallowing it down. another taste weakens his resolve even further and zoro ingests another fistful of it before grabbing hastily for the pitcher of blood, forgoing pouring it into a cup in favor of drinking from it directly, near-chugging it because it tastes so fucking good, sates something innate that he hasn't been able to deny since the change. the pitcher is half-empty when he puts it back down on the side table, lips wet and red. )
I can't do this without you either, you know. Once I'm better, you — I'll find a way to fix your wrists. You'd be an even shittier cook without your hands.
( there's no heat behind his words, just an uncertainty that he can't swallow down, promises he's afraid to make. )