( out loud, head thumping when it presses to the door a little too roughly, voice thick and weighty with all the misuse of several hours yelling and occasionally (see: frequently) crying. the real reason she didn't want zoro to come: just for today, she's not capable of faking a smile or acting unbothered. usually she would be, if only because she doesn't ordinarily express herself with anything more than cranky disinterest.
but. sanji told her he loved her, and then he hurt her. nami wanted to be vulnerable for him, wanted it, and this was her reward for it. it's not that loving sanji in return is some huge ask β it's that everything nami loves needs to be taken out back and shot in the head. first, her mother. brain bits stained on the tangerine stripe of her shirt, clutching her big sister, planning out the hateful path of her life. now? she thought about finding the strength to tell sanji she loves him. this is, naturally, life's way of reminding her of her place. )
But. I went to the club too, and I didn't β I didn't. I β ( she clears her throat loudly, pressing her cheek to her knee so zoro can't hear her crying. switches. )
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( out loud, head thumping when it presses to the door a little too roughly, voice thick and weighty with all the misuse of several hours yelling and occasionally (see: frequently) crying. the real reason she didn't want zoro to come: just for today, she's not capable of faking a smile or acting unbothered. usually she would be, if only because she doesn't ordinarily express herself with anything more than cranky disinterest.
but. sanji told her he loved her, and then he hurt her. nami wanted to be vulnerable for him, wanted it, and this was her reward for it. it's not that loving sanji in return is some huge ask β it's that everything nami loves needs to be taken out back and shot in the head. first, her mother. brain bits stained on the tangerine stripe of her shirt, clutching her big sister, planning out the hateful path of her life. now? she thought about finding the strength to tell sanji she loves him. this is, naturally, life's way of reminding her of her place. )
But. I went to the club too, and I didn't β I didn't. I β ( she clears her throat loudly, pressing her cheek to her knee so zoro can't hear her crying. switches. )
when you tell me you love me
what does that mean?