( it’s strange, how on one hand she can be blunt and honest with herself, and on the other feel a giddy type of shyness in the face of zoro’s feelings. she’s not sure why. the absence of panic inside her is almost more notable than the panic otherwise would be — has she grown a lot, in the past few months? maybe it’s just zoro, the fact that he doesn’t speak unless it’s important, saying i’m yours.
there is some sense of victory, presumably. she’s never had to guess about sanji’s feelings towards her. zoro is another story altogether. )
any way?
( she hasn’t been the one bringing more puritanical practices to their budding relationship — though, she supposes she hasn’t kissed him either. alright. she’s just going to kiss them both on the mouth when she comes home today, and pretend like it’s normal. )
it was a little weird. hard to understand at first. i kind of felt … i don’t know, an impression before i realized it was sanji. it was kind of maybe overwhelming, in a way? i could feel what he wanted, what i wanted. i felt like i knew everything about him, and that i was giving him permission for whatever he wanted. and it was physical, too. i could feel his knees getting sore, and his ears under his fingers and ( why is this easier to talk about with sanji. why does she feel so embarrassed all of a sudden. ) your dick in my mouth. like, the heaviness of it, the shape. kind of the taste too, but more like an afterthought. but really, i was just talking to him, asking how he felt and if he liked it. telling him what to do, what he could do if he wanted. and then when i started touching myself, he could feel it. it was weird, like i was touching both of us with one hand. i don’t know. that’s probably more detail than you wanted.
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there is some sense of victory, presumably. she’s never had to guess about sanji’s feelings towards her. zoro is another story altogether. )
any way?
( she hasn’t been the one bringing more puritanical practices to their budding relationship — though, she supposes she hasn’t kissed him either. alright. she’s just going to kiss them both on the mouth when she comes home today, and pretend like it’s normal. )
it was a little weird. hard to understand at first. i kind of felt … i don’t know, an impression before i realized it was sanji. it was kind of
maybe overwhelming, in a way? i could feel what he wanted, what i wanted. i felt like i knew everything about him, and that i was giving him permission for whatever he wanted.
and it was physical, too. i could feel his knees getting sore, and his ears under his fingers and ( why is this easier to talk about with sanji. why does she feel so embarrassed all of a sudden. ) your dick in my mouth. like, the heaviness of it, the shape. kind of the taste too, but more like an afterthought. but really, i was just talking to him, asking how he felt and if he liked it. telling him what to do, what he could do if he wanted. and then
when i started touching myself, he could feel it. it was weird, like i was touching both of us with one hand. i don’t know. that’s probably more detail than you wanted.